Hamba Allah

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Kuantan, Pahang, Malaysia
Ordinary muslimah. Say, 'LailahaIllallah, Muhammadur Rasulullah'. Islam is the way of life. Age: 248 months (update: 18/08/11), Currently studying as a Medical student (future Muslimah Doctor insyaAllah) at IIUM Kuantan.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Surat CINTA buat KAMU. =)

Salam'alaykum wbt...

*CAUTION!: This post is especially dedicated to a person whom I dear so much,
namely called ONE TRUE FRIEND*




Setahun yang lalu, kesabaran, ketabahan dan kecekalan hati ana diuji pabila Allah menarik nikmat yang cukup berharga buat ana. Ana putus persahabatan dengan seorang kawan baik ana atas dasar kesalah fahaman. Ana benar-benar “down” waktu tu sehinggakan ana agak kurang focus sewaktu mendengar kuliah dari pensyarah ana. Berbagai perasaan bercampur baur pada ketika itu dan ana rasa takda siapa yang akan pernah memahami perasaan ana melainkan dia mengalaminya sendiri.

Tapi, walau seberat mana ana rasa Allah menguji, Allah itu Maha Mengetahui. Allah mengurniakan ana seorang sahabat, sahabat yang benar2 sahabat. Seorang yang sangat baik dan terbaik. Allah Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang. Dia menarik seorang rakan dan kemudian mengurniakan pula seorang sahabat buat ana. Ana tak pernah menyangka, si dia bakal menjadi sahabat rapat ana walaupun kami pernah sekelas sewaktu di CFS PJ lebih kurang 3 tahun yang lalu. Dia seorang yang pendiam dan tak banyak menyumbang kepada suara sumbang di dalam kelas. =)

Allah Maha Kuasa, Makhluk langsung takda kuasa… Atas kekuasaan dan takdir Allah, Allah menghadirkan si dia, BUKAN sebagai pengganti kepada rakan yang ana hilang. Malah, dia LEBIH BAIK dari itu. Alhamdulillah… Dia merupakan seorang sahabat yang baik yang mana kata-katanya bisa menghiburkan jiwa, telatahnya bisa menceriakan suasana, senyumannya bisa mengusik rasa. Yang pasti, dia bukan sekadar sahabat di dunia, malah di akhirat jua insyaAllah. Dia banyak membantu ana secara langsung dan tak langsung dalam keadaan apa jua sekalipun. Ana yakin, dialah sahabat sejati. Sahabat yang mana, melihat wajahnya mengingatkan kita pada Allah, kata-katanya mendekatkan kita pada Allah, isi percakapannya menambahkan ilmu pengetahuan kita mengenai agama Allah dan sunnah Rasulullah…

Dialah sahabat ana, yang mana ana masih ingin bertemu di dalam syurga kelak, insyaAllah.

Dialah yang bernama NOOR SYAHIDAH BINTI SHAIK JALAL DIN, sahabat dunia dan akhirat ana.

To Shida, EID MILLAD SAIED dear sahabat!


Mere pyare dost,

Sempena ulang tahun kelahiranmu yang ke-21, saya doakan semoga Allah merahmati sepanjang umur hidupmu dan melimpahkan kurnianNya yang tak terhingga nilainya. Semoga Shida sentiasa berada di bawah bimbinganNya dan menjadi seorang anak yang taat pada perintah kedua ibubapa, seorang gadis yang solehah, seorang isteri yang baik (bakal?) dan juga seorang ibu yang berjaya mendidik anak-anaknya kelak(bakal?). Semoga kita sama-sama dapat menjadi doktor yang berkhidmat untuk masyarakat, ikhlas kerana Allah! Bukan wang yang dipinta, tapi syurga yang kekal selamanya. Semoga hidupmu diberkatiNya selalu. Semoga kita sama-sama dapat terus berjuang atas agama Allah. Teruskan usaha walau sebesar mana jua halangan yang kita bakal hadapi. InsyaAllah pasti Berjaya kerana kekuasaan yang hakiki itu milik Allah. Segalanya berlalu dengan izin Allah… Kita cuma mampu berharap dan padaNya jua kita kembali kelak.

Dear beloved friend,

For all mistakes that I have ever done to you, I sincerely ask for your forgiveness. I couldn’t express how much I care for you as my best friend. I really love you because of Allah. I know, I’m not being the best girl friend that you have ever had. I have done so many mistakes to you that I shouldn’t do. You’re amongst the best things that have ever happen to me in my life. I’m no good as a friend for you. I’m really sorry if I have ever hurt you throughout our friendship.

Dear Shida,

I really hope this relationship between us will remain forever. InsyaAllah, Ameen.

"A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway," And that is YOU.
"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out," And that is YOU.
"Friends are needed both for joy and for sorrow," And that is YOU.
"Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief," And that is YOU.
"A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have," And that is YOU.
"Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them, but you know they're always there," And that is YOU.
"Most people walk in and out of your life. But only friends leave footprints in your heart," And that is YOU.

Sekian sahaja, ikhlas dari Sahabatmu yang serba kekurangan,
NFIM





“In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”
-Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929-1968)

*Sorry for avoiding you. Who ask you to refuse my special birthday treat for you on your birthday eh?! XP

Wassalam.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Are you REALLY a MUSLIM?

Salam'alaykum wbt...

I dont know what kind of things that initiate my heart and mind to write about this. But I'm pretty sure that I was influenced by 4 presentations from my classmates just now, who presented about the Civilization of Muslim Caliphate.I sure do gain lots of knowledge today. Something that's so precious! To know who we are and realize what our duties that we're carrying throughout our entire life living in this world.


Being a Muslim is something that people should be proud of. Not only that, we have to know that we have so many things that we need to think and do in order to brings back The Greatness of Islam. There's no time to think about or let ourself to be influenced by Hedonism, which is something that most people do. Many of us, well majority of us really fall for it. We enjoy hearing musics, watching movies, playing games, reading novel, yada3 instead of listening and learning the message that Allah send to us through Al-Quran. There's so many things that we SHOULD do. And yet, we never realize it.

I do sometimes despise myself for being so lagha and let myself drown into things that I shouldn't such as watching movies when I have free times. For the last few days, I didn't even open my Biostatistics, Epidemiology and Environmental Health notes (which is something that I SHOULD DO as a student).

See? How Hedonism have been so GREAT by controlling our mind and heart! Just like one of Maher Zain's songs which clearly stated:
"Yes it's easy to blame everything on the WEST, when in fact our focus should be on OURSELVES"
I should be more particular regarding Ummatic problem. I should focusing more on our brothers and sisters in Palestine. I should learn to help any Muslims who are my siblings in Islam throughout the entire world. I should improve my knowledge about history of Islam. I SHOULD be who I'm suppose to be as a MUSLIM! And that's the best way living in this world.

People can talk how eager they are to be Mujaheedin, fighting against any cruel power of the world. Yes, we are trying to bring back the Caliphate Era in front of our eyes, right now, so that we can live harmoniously in this world. Yes, we can talk! But do we really perform at least the very basic things to be applied in our lives?
1. Perform congregational solah (prayer) 5 times each day fulfilling Takbiratul Ula
2. Performing Solatan Sunnah
3. Du'a not just for the Ummah but mainly for ourselves so that we can be strong enough to be the best Muslim that serves for Allah
4. Giving sadaqah, not necessarily by giving money because money is NOT everything that counts to give a good and ikhlas sadaqah.
5. To be a Mukhlisin in whatever we do
6. To do good to our parents and siblings and also our keen
7. To do good to our friends by performing solah jama'ah, not jama'ahly watching music videos during Maghrib time!
8. To do good to our respected lecturers who have been sacrificing their holidays in order to know and help our work progress.
9. To love Allah and Rasulullah above everything, before your unlawful love ones (aka boyfriend or girlfriend or whatever you call them. Baby, dear, sayang or whatsoever, it doesn't matter. As long as it if unlawful, it will always remain as that!
10. Yada3.

There's so many basic things that we SHOULD do so that at least we will not be among people who contributed to bad things or bad names to Islam. (Na'udzubillah min zalik)

Look. People can be so excited when they talk about entertainment and politics. In fact, if there's any demonstrations, we can find so many people pooling on that particular place. But I found this status, I'm not sure where and when. But it states +- like this.
"There's so many people who have been so spirited to be mujaheedin. They said they want to fight for Islam. But I dont even see these people, the same faces(who went for demonstration) at the mosque when Allah calls them for prayer. In fact they just ignore the azan by the mu'azin"

See?

I'm not blaming anybody here. I'm truthfully and sincerely writing this to reflect on myself. As a Muslim, I know I can be better and I SHOULD be better. Instead of wasting my time facebook-ing(which is something that I dont do like I used to anymore), I should spend my time reading about histories of Islam, find at least some way to contribute something for Islam. That's what I'm supposed to do, now and then.


I cant comment more regarding what people should or shouldn't do. We know what's best for us. Well, Allah knows. Just in case you wanna fight for Islam, please DO SO. But do it in proper way and peacefully. But what we're doing right now is none of that. We are so divided! And now we still wanna fight for Islam? UNITY! Unite first! Then only talk about jihad. Or is that not the right way? Fine. Fight for Islam without supporting one another. We can see whether we can win or LOSE BADLY in the future.


"And hold fast all together by the rope which Allah (stretches out for you) and be not divided among yourselves; and remember with gratitude Allah's favor on you; for ye were enemies and He joined your hearts in love so that by His grace ye became brethren; and ye were on the brink of the pit of fire and He saved you from it. Thus doth Allah make his signs clear to you: that ye may be guided". (Verse 013, Al-Imran).


Abu Hurairah, radiyallahu 'anhu, reported that the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, said:
"Do not be envious of one another; do not artificially inflate prices against one another; do not hate one another; do not shun one another; and do not undercut one another in business transactions; and be as fellow-brothers and servants of Allah.
A Muslim is the brother of a Muslim. He neither oppresses him nor humiliates him nor looks down upon him. Piety is here - and he pointed to his chest three times. It is evil enough for a Muslim to hold his brother Muslim in contempt. All things of a Muslim are inviolable for another Muslim: his blood, his property and his honour." [Muslim]


Isn't this enough?

Wallahua'lam.

Wassalam.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Skyscraper!

Salam'alaykum wbt...

It feels great! Now I understand why people always adore their nieces or nephews even though they're not even their own kids. Babies and children... They came directly from heaven with pure heart and adorable faces. That's what makes us become really attracted to their cuteness. Name me who doesn't? =D

Now I have one nephew on my own. And it feels great! Alhamdulillah... It's a blessing from Allah SWT. =) We were so excited to have him as part of our not-so-small-but-not-that-big family. And when we received the news from my brother that SAF was born on Tuesday, I'm actually the MOST EXCITED person! Oh well... pardon me. =P

And because of this cute little boy, my family and I have to fly away directly from Kuantan to Penang, to welcome him in our lives!
*Well, actually, I think it's kinda because of me... Well, I'm not that patient enough to wait for another few weeks to see him! So, I kinda force ask my parents to go together as soon as we can. And we end up buying airplane ticket on the spot. Can you imagine how much does it cost??? It's so expensive. SERIOUSLY.*


Salam'alaykum. Irummi My name is Shah Adam Fadly a.k.a SAF. B-D

There it goes. We met him. And he's so adorable!!! And now I miss him already. Hahah~ Thinking of his bad habit, this boy is so.... =.=". One thing. He loves to f*rt. Seriously. XD

Wassalam.


Oh. This is me and my PBL group members(sis). We had our community service during our first week of block 4. It was quite okay I guess. But we really had so much fun! And now, thinking of our next community service. Where would that be eh? ;-)

My my... there's so many grammatical mistakes.
But...
Who cares?
As long as I can understand. =P

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Mereka yang Syahid...

Salam'alaykum wbt...

Semalam kita di kejutkan dengan berita tanah runtuh dekat Rumah Anak Yatim di Hulu Langat. Kesian sungguh dengan diorang. Di katakan 13 orang telah syaheed di sana. Dan 3 orang lagi hilang. Semoga Allah ketemukan mereka dalam keadaan selamat. Semuanya adalah dari ketentuan Allah swt.

Korang tahu tak betapa Afdalnya anak yatim..?? Anak yatim adalah anugerah dari allah swt kepada kita. Anak yatim sangat mulia di sisi allah swt. Rasulullah saw sendiri juga seorang anak yatim. Anak yatim adalah asbab kepada kita utk beramal. Kita boleh bersedekah. Nasib mereka memang Allah telah tentukan begini. Sebenarnya mereka tidak mengharap pun kasih sayang dari kita. Kerana mereka tahu dunia itu kejam. Tapi, kita sebagai orang awam sebaiknya memberi kasih sayang kepada mereka. Letakkan tangan kita di atas kepada anak yatim ni sudah cukup untuk di ampunkan dosa kita.

“Barang siapa yang membelai kepala anak yatim kerana Allah SWT, maka baginya kebaikan yang banyak daripada setiap rambut yang diusap.”


~ bersyukurlah dengan nasib kita sekarang.

Dikatakan dalam quran, sebanyak 23 kali di sebutkan perkataan yatim. Kalau boleh kita cuba menghulurkan tangan untuk bantu mereka. Kita takkan rugi. Kerana di situ ada Janji Allah swt dan Rasulullah saw.

Sebaik-baik rumah ialah rumah orang Islam yang ada di dalamnya anak-anak yatim diasuh dengan baik dan sebaliknya seburuk-buruk rumah adalah rumah orang-orang Islam yang ada anak yatim tetapi tetapi tidak dijaga dengan baik.

Ancaman Allah swt jika kita buat benda yang tak baik dengan anak yatim. Di antara dosa dosa Besar adalah Apabila kita makan harta Anak Yatim. Harta anak yatim ni afdal.

Jangan demikian, (sebenarnya kata- kata kamu itu salah). Bahkan (perbuatan kamu wahai orang-orang yang hidup mewah, lebih salah lagi kerana) kamu tidak memuliakan anak yatim, (malah kamu menahan apa yang Dia berhak menerimanya) Surah Adh-Dhuha Ayat 9

Jgn lah terlalu kedekut sehingga nak derma singgit pun tak boleh. Allah akan balas anda 10 kali lebih besar dari apa yang di dermakan. Dan jgn pula kita mengharapkan balasan dunia. Harapan kita adalah balasan di akhirat.

Rasulullah SAW bersabda yang bermaksud: “Tidak ada suatu pagi yang dilalui oleh seorang hamba kecuali dua malaikat turun. Satu daripadanya berkata: Ya Allah, berilah ganti orang yang berinfak (dermawan). Malaikat yang satu lagi berkata: Ya Allah, berilah kehancuran bagi orang yang kedekut.” (Hadis riwayat Bukhari, Muslim dan Ahmad dari Abu Hurairah)

credit to: http://nafeeskata.com/

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Alhamdulillah Ya Rabbi~!

Salam'alaykum wbt.

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Terlalu banyak nikmat yang Allah berikan sampai ke suatu tahap rasa macam mengucapkan syukur tu masih lagi tak cukup untuk meluahkan rasa kesyukuran atas segala nikmat yang Allah limpahkan. Sungguh... Allah Maha Pemurah! Andai manusia menyedari betapa banyaknya nikmat yang Allah berikan, pasti kalimah "Alhamdulillah", dan "Allahuakbar" takkan lekang dari ucapan di bibir dan juga fikir.

Hari ni, result blok-3 diumumkan. Walaupun tak melihat dengan mata sendiri lagi, tapi dikhabarkan semua sisters pass exam blok-3. Alhamdulillah... Segala penat jerih, pening kepala, tangisan yang mengalir kerana stress, rasa berbayar... Tapi ana sedar. Kejayaan yang Allah kurniakan pada diri ini BUKAN atas usaha diri sendri tapi atas sebab Allah nak bagi. Semuanya nikmat dari Allah. Bahkan kalau Allah tak bagi nikmat, kita nak usaha bukak buku pun tak mampu, kan? Dan akhirnya, Allah yang menentukan segala-galanya. Dan Alhamdulillah... Rasa nak menangis pun ada. Terharu atas segala-galanya.


Dan hari ini juga, anak saudara sulung telah selamat dilahirkan. Alhamdulillah... Dilahirkan secara sihat dan normal pada pukul 10.10 pagi tadi dengan berat 2.9kg. Nama yang diilhamkan adalah Shah Adam Fadly bin ShahRiza Fadly. Heheh~ Sangat comel... InsyaAllah, kalau takda aral yang melintang, akan menerbangkan diri ke Sg.Petani untuk berjumpa dengan anak saudara sulung yang diberi nama panggilan Adam. Tak sabar... =D Rasa terlebih excited macam dapat anak sendiri ja... Tapi normal kot? Sebab anak saudara sulung... Huhuh~ Alhamdulillah... (^_^)

Mujahid Da'wah Ilallah sudah menjejak Bumi:
Shah Adam Fadly bin Shah Riza Fadly


Nyenyak tidur~ (^_^)

Namun begitu... hari ini keadaan diri tak berapa sihat... Sebenarnya dah beberapa hari... Maka umi dan ayah membawa ana untuk berjumpa dengan optometrist untuk mengetahui keadaan selanjutnya. Ternyata keadaan di Malaysia yang diserang dengan cuaca yang panas memberi kesan yang buruk kepada ana menyebabkan mata tak tahan dengan silauan lalu memaksa diri untuk membuat cermin mata baru jenis transition untuk mengurangkan kadar silauan yang memasuki mata. Terbanglah duit yang agak banyak juga... Kesian dekat umi dan ayah... Haih... Nak buat macam mana... Ana dulu berdegil nak pakai cermin mata. Sekarang, terpaksalah terima bahananya... =.="


Apa pun, Alhamdulillah sangat2... Ya Rabbi... Allah Maha Pemurah... Kalaulah manusia sedar bahawa Allah sering memberikan nikmat kepada kita... Bahkan setiap saat! Macam mana tu? Ha, cuba rasa degupan jantung antum. Agak2 kalau Allah tak bagi nikmat untuk jantung kita berdegup, kita masih dapat hidup lagikah? Dan pabila sudah meninggalkan dunia, atas rahmat Allah jugalah kita dapat masuk syurga. Kerana apa? Kerana andai kita nak masuk syurga berlandaskan amal kita sahaja, takkan termampu untuk masuk syurga kerana amal kita terlalu sedikit kalau nak dibandingkan dengan rahmat Allah... Tapi still, tingkatkan amal kerana mereka yang baik amalnya, Allah menjanjikan syurga buatnya di akhirat kelak! InsyaAllah, Ameen...


Maka, jom ramai2 kita jaga amal kita! Jangan kata NAK ja tapi TAK usaha... Kita kena usaha sedaya upaya, semampu yang boleh. Semoga ana dan antum semua dapat menjadi penghuni Jannatul Firdausi! Ameen...

Wallahua'lam.
Wassalam.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Of Kisah Sireh Turn to Gagang

Salam'alaykum wbt.... Khaifa halukum? Harapnya khair... Alhamdulillah... =)

Pejam celik pejam celik, bukak tutup mata, Alhamdulillah dah seminggu ana cuti break blok ke- 3... lagi 5 hari insyaAllah akan meneruskan perjuangan yang takkan pernah terhenti untuk blok ke-4 pulak... I wonder how it's gonna be? Sebab takda idea macam mana blok ke-4 akan di'conduct'. Tunggu dan lihat ja... Cuma dengar kata banyak melibatkan research dan presentation? I love presentation, actually. Why? Ask me not. I have no answer for my ownself as well. I just know that I love it. =)

Anyway, hari Isnin lepas ana dan keluarga bermusafir ke Kuala Lumpur, umi dan ayah ada urusan. Dalam pada itu, sempat pulang ke kampung di Selangor... Kebanyakkan keluarga sebelah ayah menetap di sana. Jadi, ambil keputusan untuk ziarah, sambil menyelam sambil minum air. Sementara cuma... Tapi sekurang2nya, dapat luangkan masa, walaupun sekejap tapi sangat bermakna.

Pertamanya, kami sekeluarga menziarahi datuk yang sudah keseorangan tanpa pasangan hidupnya sejak setahun lalu. Terimbau kembali, disaat tu, pada pukul 10 malam, ana terima panggilan daripada umi menyatakan nenek telah kembali ke rahmatullah. Rasa nak menangis tapi air mata tak mampu dialirkan bagai ada sesuatu yang menahannya... Bagaikan tak percaya... Ketika itu, ana baru jumpa dengan arwah nenek 2 bulan sebelumnya ketika majlis perkahwinan abang ana. Terimbau kembali bagaimana sekujur tubuh kaku jenazah arwah nenek dimandikan, bagaimana arwah nenek dikafankan dengan helaian kain putih, bagaimana kawasan rumah dipenuhi sanak saudara dan jiran tetangga bagi mengunjungi arwah nenek buat kali terakhir. Ayah yang mengimamkan solat jenazah... Imbauan kenangan membasahi pipi buat kesekian kali... Rindu arwah nenek... InsyaAllah... Dengan izin Allah... Nenek pasti bahagia di sana... =")

Waiza ja aajaluhum, layastakhirunasa'atan wala yastakdimun. Innalillahi wainnailaihi rajiun. 05/04/2010 pukul 8.20mlm
-Ya Allah, cucuri rohnya dengan rahmatMu, berbelas kasihanlah dan tempatkan nenekku dalam kalangan orang2 yang soleh, masukkan dia ke dalam syurgamu yang luas dan jauhkannya dari azab seksamu yang amat pedih. Angkatkan dia dari seksaan kubur dan rahmatilah seluruh hayatnya yang sering beribadah kepadaMu. Ameen..-

Kepulangan ana dan keluarga ke kampung kali ni, entah kenapa cukup menyesakkan dada, rasa hiba. Datuk merupakan seorang yang sangat suka bercakap, takkan pernah berhenti kecuali waktu solat. Seusai solat, pasti ada saja benda yang akan diceritakannya. Dengar datuk bercerita tentang nenek, I can feel how much he miss her... Matanya bergenang air mata... Dia redha pemergian nenek tapi lumrahlah, seluruh umur hidupnya dihabiskan bersama nenek, datuk sangat2 sayangkan nenek... Boleh nampak sangat melalui caranya... Dan datuk menggunakan tasbih nenek... I hope he can hold still... Sebab mengikut kajian psikologi, agak susah untuk seseorang survive pabila pasangan sehidup sematinya sudah tiada... That's a fact that my whole family know... Harapnya datuk dapat bertahan... Walaupun kami seolah sudah bersedia secara mental, tapi kami tetap berharap datuk kuat untuk meneruskan hayatnya... Harapnya...

Datuk tinggal dengan Pak Alang sekeluarga... Dan Pak Alang pun tak berapa sihat... Menghidap diabetes. 3 daripada 7 adik beradik ayah menghidap kencing manis. Kemungkinan besar dari habit pemakanan sebab faktor genetik tak menyumbang walau 0.1% sebab sebelum ni takda sejarah yang menyatakan sebegitu. Tapi Pak Alang bernasib baik sebab dia menghidap penyakit kencing manis 'kering' yang mana kesannya tak seteruk penyakit kencing manis 'basah' yang boleh menyebabkan komplikasi seperti 'Diabetic Foot'.

Seterusnya, sebelum pulang ke Kuantan, kami sempat bersinggah ke rumah Mak Long, yang turut menghidap diabetes sejak lebih 10 tahun yang lalu. Keadaan Mak Long lebih teruk dari Pak Alang... Sudah beberapa ketika tak bertemu... Dah lain wajah Mak Long. Sungguh... Jugular vein di lehernya ditebuk bagi memudahkan haemodialysis sebab buah pinggangnya dah rosak. Keadaan yang cukup teruk bagi penghidap pesakit kencing manis. Seeing her with her condition, I'm speechless.

Her upper limb look almost similar to this but is more chronic. Swelling and bulging out of vein, bluish colour, what is called as varicose vein. I can see the vein is beating. It's so serious, if you prick on it, I'm so sure A LOT of blood will comes out.

Antara dialog ana dan umi sewaktu dalam kereta ketika dalam perjalanan pulang,

Umi: Adik tak sedih tengok keadaan Mak Long?
Adik: Mesti sedih... Sebak. Tapi kena tahan. That's what I'm going to face for the rest of my life.
Umi: Kena tabah, kan?
Adik: Yup. Being a doctor is never easy. Kena kuat berhadapan dengan semua tu.

*Deep inside my heart... I wish I could do something for them. I hope they can stay still, be strong till I become a doctor... I wanna help... After all, they're my family. I wish I can be a doctor as soon as possible so I could prevent them from suffering more. I wish I COULD but I know I CANT. ="( *

Sesuatu perasaan yang semua orang pasti akan ada. We hope we can do something for our love ones. Tapi tu semua kehendak Allah... Dia yang Maha Berkuasa dan Dialah Penyembuh Terbaik, Penyembuh Segala Penyakit. But that's what makes me strong, to stay still, no matter what I have to face in the future. This is the path that Allah SWT chose for me... I have to be strong to help a lot of people out there. Seriously.

Macam yang ana katakan, being a doctor is never easy. You're a human and yet you have to act like a robot. You cant put into your feelings regarding any matter, be it a chronic disease or even death. You ought to suppress your feelings. That's the rule that MUST be followed. Kinda cruel huh? But that's the Ugly Truth. Whether we like it or not, we have to bear with it.

Memang nampak kejam. Tapi tu sebenarnya salah satu pendorong untuk kami semakin dekat dengan Allah SWT kerana hanya dengan bantuan dariNya, kami mampu tabahkan hati, kami mampu melaksanakan tugas di masa depan nanti dengan lebih mudah. Allah SWT tempat kami mengadu. Hanya Allah SWT yang kami ada. Hanya Dia yang mampu membantu. Bukan ilmu yang penuh di dada, bukan doktor pakar yang membantu, tapi Allah SWT yang bantu. Hanya Dia.

Itu merupakan suatu fakta yang semua orang tau dan barangsiapa yang mendekatkan dirinya dengan Allah SWT, maka Allah akan permudahkan segala urusannya di dunia dan akhirat. Kami benar2 bertawakkal pada Allah sebab dalam apa situasi pun, hanya Dia yang boleh bantu. Supaya kami dapat handle case dengan baik, supaya kami dapat kuat semangat, supaya kami mudah terima hakikat andai perlu berdepan dengan patient yang meninggal dunia di depan mata kami. Allah yang bantu kami semua berhadapan dengan semua tu. Dari awal, kami kena siap sedia... Bukan sahaja dengan ilmu tapi kekuatan mental dan rohani. Masa depan tak terlalu jauh. Kami bakal berdepan dengan pelbagai cabaran yang kami tak tahu sama ada kami mampu harungi atau tak. Tapi dengan bantuan Allah, kami PASTI kami dapat tempuhinya. InsyaAllah... InsyaAllah...

Teringat penghuni Rumah Ehsan. Apa khabar mereka di sana... ="(

.............................Tak dapat meneruskan kata-kata lagi. Jaga diri dan kesihatan masing2... Sesungguhnya bukan doktor yang menyembuhkan tapi Allah. Tawakkal 'alaAllah dalam segala apa urusan pun. =)

Wassalam.

Bersama umi dan ayah. Sempat lunch di Alamanda sebelum pulang ke Kuantan. Nasi sepinggan RM10.00 ++. Tak nak makan kat situ dah. Huh. =P

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Ganjaran BESAR! Woww!

Salam'alaykum wbt...

Seperti biasa, setiap minggu hari Sabtu ana, umi dan ukhti pergi majlis taklim, sebuah majlis yang memperdengarkan hadith Rasulullah saw. Banyak sangat2 kelebihan yang kita dapat pabila menghadiri majlis ilmu. Kadang2 kita tak sedar kita telah menghiasi kehidupan seharian dengan dosa sama ada besar mahupun kecil. Maka untuk mengurangkan dosa kita, patutlah menghadiri majlis2 ilmu, untuk mengingatkan kita tentang kebesaran Allah, amalkan Sunnah Rasulullah.


Bila pergi kan, baru sedar.... "Eh, la... senang rupanya nak dapat pahala banyak2...". Ganjaran kita berlipat kali ganda Allah bagi kalau nak dibandingkan dengan zaman Rasulullah dulu sebab Allah Maha Mengetahui, Dia TAHU betapa besar cabaran yang perlu kita hadapi sekarang ni.... So, dengan bahagianya, ana nak share dengan kalian antara ganjaran yang akan kita dapat jika kita amalkan beberapa perkara...

1. Barang siapa yang mengucapkan Laa ilaahaillllah dan hatinya membenarkan lisannya; diJAMIN masuk syurga dari pintu MANA SAJA yang dikehendakinya.

2. Barangsiapa menjaga solat berjama'ah, di tempat dimana azan berkumandang, di awal waktu; maka akan mendapatkan 5 jaminan:

  1. Keberkatan rezki (Alhamdulillah...)
  2. Diangkat dari seksa kubur (Allah... bestnya! =D )
  3. Mendapat buku catatan amal di tangan kanan (Maka akan baiklah nasibmu di hari Hisab)
  4. Meniti Titian Sirat SEPANTAS KILAT! (Woww!)
  5. Masuk Syurga tanpa hisab (What more can you ask eh? ;-) )
3. Barangsiapa mempelajari SATU AYAT Al Quran maka nilainya adalah lebih baik daripada solat sunnah 100 RAKAAT. Barangsiapa mempelajari SATU BAB dari ilmu maka lebih baik nilainya daripada solat sunnah 1000 RAKAAT! SubhanAllah.... =")

4. Barangsiapa melazimi membaca 100 ayat Al-Quran setelah solat Subuh, maka Allah akan menganugerahkan pahala sebesar SELURUH ISI DUNIA! (Besarnya! Nak3!!)

5. Dalam hal SOLAT, barangsiapa yang bersedia dalam keadaan berwudhu'
  1. Sebelum masuk waktu solat- Mukanya akan bercahaya seperti MATAHARI di Padang Mahsyar
  2. Sewaktu masuk solat- Mukanya akan bercahaya bak BULAN PURNAMA di Padang Mahsyar
  3. Setelah masuk waktu solat- Mukanya akan bercahaya bagai BINTANG di langit di Padang Mahsyar

6. Barangsiapa yang mengamalkan SATU Sunnah Rasulullah saw, maka dia akan memperoleh ganjaran seperti SERATUS kali mati SYAHID!

7. Barangsiapa yang mencintai Rasulullah dan mengamalkan Sunnah baginda, maka dia kan bersama dengan orang yang dicintainya kelak di Padang Mahsyar. (I love you ya Rasulullah! =) )

And the list goes on. Sememangnya TERAMAT BANYAK cara untuk kita dapat ganjaran, kebaikan di dunia dan di akhirat. Tapi benda yang simple pun orang susah nak amalkan. As been said, hanya ALLAH yang berhak memberikan hidayah dan petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya. Maka, berdoalah supaya Allah sentiasa guide hati kita supaya tetap di atas jalanNya.

Hidup di dunia hanya SEMENTARA. Barangsiapa yang mencintai dunia, celakalah dia dan barangsiapa yang mencintai akhirat, berbahagialah dia. Take your pick, people. (^_^)

Semoga dapat ambil iktibar dan dapat diamalkan, dan jangan lupa untuk share ilmu akhirat dengan kawan2 yang lain! Jom sama2 kita masuk syurga!! Baru best ramai2~! =D

Wallahua'lam.
Wassalam.

Friday, April 22, 2011

The Sweetness... (^_^)

Salam'alaykum wbt... Just wanna share with you guys some of my English favourite songs. Just love the music arrangement and sweet lyrics, nothing lies behind it tho... Please do enjoy... (^_^)

P/s: I've tried my best to find video's without any 'sexy creatures'. So.... =)


My Destiny



Thank God I've Found You



When You Believe


Contigo En La Distancia- Spanish



Spread the LOVE~~ <3
Wassalam.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Haiya Binaa!

Salam'alaykum wbt...

Alhamdulillah... Akhirnya telah selamat berjihad di medan peperiksaan 18-20 April 2011 untuk blok ke-3 Tahun 1 di UIA. Ya Allah... Secara jujur, rasa 'peperangan' kali ni yang paling mencabar kekuatan mental. Menuntut ilmu bukannya susah... Sangat best sebenarnya bila dapat belajar benda baru... Sangat2 enthusiastic! Tapi bila nak exam, memang rasa macam... "Habis la... Lingkup!" Huhuh~

Tapi satu ja... Bukan kecerdikan yang menjadi kayu ukur kejayaan. Tapi sama ada kita berjaya mengawal emosi, mempunyai daya ketahanan mental yang tinggi dan terutama sekali, jaga hubungan dengan Ilahi. Tapi itu bukan satu tiket untuk dekat dengan Allah waktu nak exam ja. Ingat Allah, dekat dengan Dia sepanjang masa. Itu yang terbaik. Maka bila kita susah, PASTI Allah akan tolong. Kan Dia dah janji... Remember? (^_^) Tak nak komen banyak2 pasal exam... Sebab dah lepas... Yang berlalu biarkan pergi, jangan dikenang lagi. Hahah~ InsyaAllah.... Tawakkal 'alaAllah. Usaha la macam mana pun... Kejayaan itu terletak di tangan Allah. Dia yang Pilih siapa yang dikehendakiNya. Allah mampu lakukan Segala-galanya! Terimalah dengan hati terbuka... InsyaAllah berjaya... bukan sahaja di dunia, tapi insyaAllah di akhirat sana jua. Ameen. =)

KLIBF- Book Fair datang lagi! As usual, memang acara tahunan, memang pasti pergi. Tapi tak tahulah macam mana tahun ni... Harap2 dapat pergi juga. Semoga Allah izinkan... =)

Hahh... memandangkan cuti selama 12 hari (je? =P), plan nak buat banyak benda tapi end up duduk rehat2 dekat rumah. Tapi memang tak nak bazirkan masa lapang yang ada ni. Apa kata kembali baca buku! Ingat nak ulang balik baca novel karya Hlovate... Huhuh... Dah baca tapi nak ulang balik sebab ter'influence' dengan seorang sahabat ni, yang baca novel time nak exam hari tu. Mantap kan? Huhuh... Ceq tak mampu nak buat lagu tu... Tahap Moksha! (depa la kata lagu tu. Sampai la ni ceq tak tau maksud Moksha tu pa dia. Huhuh~ ) XP

......................*dah hilang idea nak tulis apa*.......................

Anyways, Selamat Bercuti pada semua sahabat tak kira di mana jua anda berada. Semoga diri dipelihara Allah sentiasa, lakukan aktiviti yang bermanfaat untuk diri dan agama. Jom mantapkan iman! Dah jihad untuk dunia, jangan lupa jihad untuk akhirat juga! Kan itu destinasi utama kita.... Jannatul Firdausi... Ameen Ya Rabbi... =)

Wassalam.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Peperiksaan= Exam= Apa tu?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ya Ahlul Jannah (Ameen)...

Hahah...ha..ha...haih... Exam lagi. Akan tiba dalam masa 9 hari... End block exam Block ke-3.

Subjek: Parasitology, Pharmacology, and Microbiology.
Persoalannya: Dah bersediakah?
Jawapannya: BELUM.

Masih banyak yang perlu dihafal dan difaham. Tapi walau sebanyak mana pun ilmu yang perlu dipelajari, perlu ikhlaskan niat. Niat belajar kerana Allah, kerana nak amal dengan ilmu yang ada, untuk kebaikan makhluk dunia. InsyaAllah... InsyaAllah... Usaha... Doa Allah permudahkan urusan, Doa Allah bantu.. Allah akan bantu.. Dia Maha Berkuasa, remember? =)

Maka, ingin minta diri dulu... Sebab PERLU study.

Statement of the week (quite harsh BTW),

"I HATE BACKBITERS!"

Jangan mengumpat jika anda tidak mahu DIUMPAT. What goes around comes around. Remember?

Wassalam.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Hadith 15- Backbiting? Think Wisely!

Assalamualaikum wbt. Since my halaqah team need to memorize few Quranic versus and Hadith, apparently Hadith 15 is one of them. For this post, obviously I simply copy paste it from somewhere. I do think it's worth to share. But bare in your mind, I'm focusing more on the 1st part of the hadith, which is about "either speak good or be silent". Think wisely~ (^_^)

Hadith 15 Arabic text

Abu Hurairah, radiyallahu 'anhu, reported that the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, said:

"Let whosoever believes in Allah and in the Last Day either speak good or be silent. Let whosoever believes in Allah and in the Last Day honour his neighbour. Let whosoever believes in Allah and in the Last Day honour his guest."

[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]


What we can learn here is that either we say something beneficial and good or else we should keep silent.

There are many Islamic guidelines which help us to say good things and to refrain from saying bad things, or things which displeases Allah subhana wa ta'ala. When we talk to others, whether it is relatives, friends, neighbours, etc., we should select the best terms/words and say them in a nice way. We should ensure that what we say is clear and easily understood. If we are not careful and we do not choose the right words, what we say may be misinterpreted and may lead to conflicts.

As a listener, we have to listen positively and interpret what we hear in a good way. We should not 'over interpret' what we hear; we should not try to 'read between the lines'. Thus, as a speaker we say things in a positive manner and as a listener we interpret things in a positive manner. By doing so Islam encourages us to minimise disputes and conflicts.

If we find ourselves in the middle of a dispute between two people, e.g. between friends, we should not take sides. We should try to help and reconcile the differences; try to resolve the problems and end the dispute.

If we are being consulted by someone and asked for our advice, we should try our best to give good advice. What we say should help the person and not add to his confusion or doubt. If we do not have enough knowledge and we cannot provide proper advice, then we should keep silent.

Even if we have information which, as a result, may add to the person's confusion, we should keep it to ourselves.

We should keep away as best as we can from unnecessary or non-beneficial talk. People can talk or chat for hours but a lot of what is said is unimportant or trivial and does not benefit anyone. It wastes our time and this continuous talking may even lead us into areas where we might say something which displeases Allah subhana wa ta'ala.

When it comes to saying good things, there are many examples available: dzikrullah (remembrance of Allah), reciting the Qur'an, du'a, giving advice, etc. These are all things which are pleasing to Allah.

When we meet people who are sick, sad, feeling down, in a low frame of mind, etc., we should say things that will make these people feel better, have patience in facing their calamity, be positive, be strong, etc. This is known as al-muasah - to say good things of encouragement to help those facing problems; to not make them panic. The scholars have defined sabr (patience) as 'to refrain from panicking' - to refrain from being out of control - and to refrain the tongue from complaining.

Complaining, e.g. simply saying that the weather is hot, will lead us to impatience; it can affect our attitude and hence our work. If we want to lament we should lament only with Allah. If we do it with Allah it is munajah - it will turn into ibadah. If we do it with others it will be complaining (tashakki) - we will be violating the ibadah itself, which is sabr. So we should learn to minimise and ultimately eliminate the act of complaining.

We should refrain from saying bad things or things which may be untrue. When we hear some news, we shouldn't simply repeat it or spread it without first verifying if the news is true. This could lead to us spreading lies or rumours. We must refrain from:

  • spreading rumours, especially those that will cause harm to the community.
  • slandering, back-biting, etc.
  • sarcasm and making fun of others - this is one of the most common social ills today. It is a sin to make fun of others.

Sometimes we may encounter a situation which involves fitnah or al-fitan. We have to be careful of what we say. There are people who will take advantage of the situation and they may say things which may worsen the situation. When there is fitnah, people are in a panic and might believe anything. That's why we have to be careful of what we say because it may add to the people's fears and problems. What we should do is to help by saying positive things that will give the people hope; to uplift them and motivate them to face the problems; and not to make it worse.

Prophet Muhammad saw said, "
Beware of ghibah for the sin of ghibah is bigger than the sin of adultery (zina). Verily those who commit adultery, when he repents, Allah will accept his repentance. And verily those who do ghibah (back-stabbing/ says bad things about someone behind his back), his sin WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN BEFORE THE PERSON TO WHOM HE DOES GHIBAH FORGIVES HIM."(from Ibnu Abi al-Dunya and Ibnu Hibban. Taken from the magazine Solusi, issue 18, page 37)


So, are we clear now? Thinking of practicing any? Think wisely.

Wassalam.